Today marks the first day of Spring. With the symbolic move from the death of winter to the renewal of Spring come the need to spring clean. Both literally and figuratively. I spent the day cleaning out the untouched books from the shelf in my closet, gathering unworn clothes, and bagging them up for donation. Throughout the day, I’ve been frustrated as I’ve been home alone going through the motions of my day to day life. Getting up and going to work, going to school, going to church, then rinse and repeat. Every week feels the same, if I’m not at work, school or church, I’m at home feeling as if I’m doing nothing. Over the last year, I’ve wrestled with my situation. The sense of stagnation, purposelessness had and continues to linger, but recently I’ve come to a new realization. While we take the time to clean our houses and our closets, we do not always take the time to clean our spiritual lives. Today, I’ve had a lot of time to think and reflect while I cleaned out and simplified things that needed to go.
Over the last year, as I’ve discussed numerous times now, have been restless and frustrated with my situation. As I did chores today, I was sitting on two thoughts. First came from a line from the new Star Wars movie. In The Last Jedi, the main antagonist, Kylo Ren speaks to anther character about leaving behind the past. “Let the past die,” as the character speaks in a metaphoric change in the direction Star Wars is taking. This line has some philosophic value behind it that extends to you and I. Y’all, we far too often get hung up on the past. We get focused in on the things that we’ve done wrong, the times that we think we’re better or simpler, and we look backward instead of looking forward.
The past can weigh us down, and hold us back from taking steps to move forward. The other second thought came from C.S. Lewis who said, “I have found a desire within myself that no experience in this world can satisfy; the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world.” Y’all, if you are truly a follow of Jesus then this life is just temporary. We get hung up worrying about today, tomorrow, our social status, and seeing how our lives compare to others when in reality we ought to be focused on the life ahead. I, we, have our priorities out of whack! We have placed emphasis on the immediate and not on the kingdom of God.
So why am I tripping? Why am I so hung up on the here and now? As I’ve gotten older, the more I’ve come to agree with Lewis. Unfortunately, I’ve been looking down in the moment instead of keeping my eyes on Jesus. Y’all, God can and will use you where you are. The strife and struggle to keep up with the ever changing, fleeting standards of society are not for our pursuit. We are to pursue the furthering of the Kingdom. We were designed to walk with God in the flesh and to worship Him. Just as Adam and Eve walked in creation with God, so too, we’re we intended to!
I’ll be honest, today I was frustrated with my life. I’m tired of feeling like what I’m doing has no merits or meaning. I want to have a life of meaning, of purpose. I want to be able to do more for God’s kingdom! So while I am here, where I’m at, it may be difficult to see all the ways in which God is currently using me, but I’m not stagnantly waiting for something greater. I may be in the same place, but God is using me where I am. And y’all, God’s using you too! So don’t loose sight of God and the things to come! Trust him and his sovereign plan for your life!
So here we are at the end of the day. It’s the beginning of Spring and we have an opportunity before us to reflect and look at our lives and do some tendering to our spiritual gardens!
Grace and Peace, Y’all,